A year since my best friend has passed. You are missed.  So much has happened this past year.  A lot has changed, my mental growth, my surroundings, yet the people I know stayed the same. Strong, grateful and loving.  If he knows how we are coping down here, He definitely would be elated.  I’m on a flight back home from West Palm. This Thanksgiving and Christmas are definitely memorable, as I self reflect on what to me is more important. It’s always a good reminder to truly know what we are grateful for. 

Time to me is the most important.  Why?  Without time, I won’t get to spend those valuable moments with family, with friends, and with great people.  Money can’t buy the time you are able to create these memories with, from losing Tevin to the birth of my niece Emilia, being able to witness a communion between two lovers, 2019 was the year this all happened.  Now having several invitations for weddings magnetized on my fridge door this coming 2020 is exciting. 

So happy for my friends who were engaged or married this year, congrats, it truly is a blessing to have found your other half.  I really can’t wait to see my Best Friend Esther walk down the aisle. Can’t wait for Eddie and Corrine to have their beautiful baby.  

As I hug my parents every time I leave for the airport, I feel their unconditional love, I feel their gratefulness and I feel blessed that my parents love me beyond comprehension.  I miss them, does not matter how old I get, I can always confide in them, knowing I will always get their full support.  

I’ve traveled a whole lot this past year, to New York, Virginia- Washington DC, Canada, California, the Philippines and frequently to Florida.  Partly to get away, but mostly to spend it with my close friends and family.  I have my angel always watching over me keeping me safe.  

I started out this year heartbroken, a heavy loss, an empty hole, a void in my heart, to having it slowly filled with excitement, with love, with meaning.  Along the way by accident, I unexpectedly found a friend who eventually became the center of my thoughts and feelings.  I wasn’t expecting this little surprise so soon.  I am enamored by how he views life.  To find someone with so many similarities yet we are different in so many ways. 

I know with all the struggles and losses I’ve had in my life how hard it is to move forward and keep living.   The struggle to become somebody, not settling because of the opportunities that present itself.  I was taught to keep going, no matter what my struggles were. My parents were that beacon of light that I can mirror and follow.  They’ve lost everything to coming back to stability.  Life continues to move forward, time doesn’t stop for anyone.  God gave us a limited amount of time, and we should use that time wisely.  I know that’s all my angel wanted for me. You are the reason.